Only a few more weeks till the end of 2020, and what a year it has been!! This decade truly started with a bang! Its been a very tough year for many of us, not just because of the pandemic but for many other reasons, some might still be struggling but we are here and made it through in one piece!
I am definitely celebrating this year differently to the previous years, this year I am celebrating Christmas the way it should be, free of judgement and fear, being in the moment and enjoying being surrounded by family. No thoughts of if there is enough of wine on the table, or constantly checking if my glass is empty and wanting a refill.
Time has now come to leave the past behind, no more looking back at who I was, no more looking at all the things I have done wrong or could have done better. This year despite all that was going on around in this world I became a better person for myself, I finally decided to forgive myself for all my mistakes, I gave myself permission to own my mistakes & finally 100% love me for me warts and all. I decided to let go of the fear of not being good enough, always worrying about every one else's feelings and being caught up in their emotions, this year is the year I really started to live my life for me.
Living in the right now and being grateful for all that I have, not just for the big things but all the small things. I stopped looking at all the things I don't have and began to focus on all the wonderful things I do have. I may not have a big house or money to buy what ever I want to buy. But I do have a roof over my head, food to eat and most of all I have wonderful family and friends who love me for me.
This year ends for me with so many lessons learnt, but most importantly this year ends with me appreciating everything that I have and everything that I am.
"Love yourself. Forgive yourself. Be true to yourself" - Steve Maraboli