What a beautiful day it was today, my body was exhausted and I really didn’t have the energy to do much.
My husband wanted to take the boys to the park. After much deliberation I pushed myself to get up change into my active wear & join. Once I got there I pushed myself to go for a run and get my exercise in. Something I would have never done this time 2 years ago, even this time a year ago!
Previously I would have encouraged Danny to take the boys out so I can be on my own and I would have done one of two things:
1. I would have gone back to bed because I was hungover from an all night bender the night before (yes at home on my own)
2. I would have gone to the liquor store to buy a bottle of “whatever” to have a few drinks while I had the place to myself!
So making that conscious choice and pushing myself to get out the door to spend time with my boys & get some exercise in was a great achievement for me, something I was so proud of. It wasn't easy, but I did it, I decided to take control of my life and my thought process. Only I have the power to change my thoughts, it took me awhile to realise this but I got there eventually.